Woo School holidayssssssssssss. Happy n looking forward for our GENTING TRIP. This round smthing special, we have a purple theme, that means alomost everyone will be wearing Purple top on our first day of trip. Interesting rite, sure very happening. imagine the whole bus ppl wearing purple, imagine such a big group of us.... haha almost 40 leh. Nt less,...................
This 2weeks is angel week, haha. i went out everyday. But i very kiasu, i make sure my alwis do sm assessment first b4 go out de hor.....
Then i oso cook sm porridge for them, cos outside food no good, sm1 always keep repeating in my ears. Woooooo
Rainy day today, shld be enjoying cos we going science centerrrrrr.
Alwis likes science center.

Okie so far sooo gd, just hope this holiday is a pleasant one.

Nw everyday is miserable to me, i am nt happy, but i dun wan earvin to be difficult.
But i just wan to stay alone as a family.... but nt w her leh../.............I dun wan to get old, i wan to die b4 i am old, becos i dun wan next time when i am old, i being neglected by my children.
just becos i am kind to old ppl nt means that i shld be bullied.......................................................................................

exams over, i am happy n relax.... but alwis nt that stress leh?

Hmmm i am living in hell nw, my parent in law staying at MY HOUSE...zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. for 2 weeks, then she go back sharon there for 2 weeks.....
Funny de leh, i dun understand y sm ppl just cant get along w sm ppl. Me as example too...
I just dun like to stay w her honestly, but Earvin is toooooo fillial, so i had no choice but to accomodate. But w many needles in my stomach.
just first day staying at my place, she starts to chk my hse like MANAGER. Am i evil to say that, smtimes i feel i am evil, but sm ppl even more evil than me. Keep telling me
the way to cook..... alwis must wear clothes aft sch, chk my house, chk the toilet that the maid just wash, interrupt the way i teach my children, always keep saying dun eat outside food, wow liao, i realli wan to jump dwn from my flat...
Just 1 word, SICKKKKKKKKKKK
sick of everything, sick of being a human, just sick lah, idiot.
I dun noe hw long i can take it with ppl who interupt my DAILY LIFE.
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ZZZZZZZ march the first.
Blue monday, alwis was making noise when i woke him up in the morning.
Yesterday playing cards at mummy hse n reach hm abt 10pm
The kids were all too tired cos normally we slept at 9. Kekeke
went cwp w tracy n trio eat long john silver breakfast
forever this restaurant gt no aircon so hot .
Alwis hving chinese test this thur, so far i nt worried too much on his eng n maths. just abit worried on chinese. hope he can do well lah.
Sianzzz tot of sleeping nw, but my friends called up a few times asking about things . so fed up dun sleep liao.

So far 3weeks in school. Alwis did well in both his chinese n english spelling. He oso did well in his worksheets frm schoool. But sometimes i just wonder if i hv put on too much pressure on him. Thats wat earvin say. alwis is lazy if he is nt being watched. so i always tell him if spelling gt mistakes he will get cane. so difficult to teach children now, hw cm mummy dun hv this problem when i was in pri school.

Yesterday alwis had a stomache but he did not went to the toilet. until he cant hold on anymore he rush in to the toilet. that was too late, he wet his pants. luckily in school, the general office staff is very kind, they wash him up n gave him a new pair of uniform.
got scolding from me when reach hm, i told him nt to hold his urine or if he wans pass motion he have to go.
he is quite afraid to go toilet alone, so he rather hold on to it.

Everyday recess, he will go to the same food store, eat the same old thing.

lol

Monday again, today is the 2nd week of school. Alwis is coping well. Just yesterday he suddenly say he found a 10cents coin in the garden. As my surprise, he told me his buddy a pri 5 boy actually told him it was a gift for him becos he is good boy. haha, my boy was so innocent he realli believe wat his buddy said. i didn scolded him, but i told him that whenever he sees anything on the floor that doesnt belong to him, he should pick it up n bring it to the teacher.

I told him that is called honest. So he was quite sad n keep thinking that he may have did something wrong. he asked me wat is honest? he ask me hw to pass the money back to the teacher? he oso ask me he dun noe which 10cents is the 1 he picked up as his wallet oso hv a few 10cents?

i answered all his questions, then he is okie.

Today is a sad day, 49days ago, he just left us without a word. without telling us to be good, without smiling to us before he closed his eyes, without wishing us the best, even without waving a bye to us. It is expected by everyone that he wont live any longer, neither any of us wanted to let him go, n is so contradicting that we wouldnt wan to c him suffer. Let go or not, is already not a choice by us, by him or even by doctors. He was just taken away peacefully.

Eversince this man left us, he left with us his laughter, his nagging, full of nice n funny memories.
He is a joker, he is a happy man, he is a proud person, he is a nice man.
he talks bad at time but that is just his character.

Gan dei, wherever u r nw, u r blessed w all our wishes. We hope that no matter where u go, where u r, u do always remember us just the way we remember u.

Love u always


Alwis is adapting fast in his new school, he have a great time this week. Everyday after school, he will tell me many stories about his class, happenings in school.

Haha. 2010 first day of school 4 jan. Rain in the morning. make ppl feel more tired.
My boy looks good, seems to be able to cope in class when i secretly popped my head through the window outside his class.
His form teacher is a malay lady.
His kindergarden teacher was a malay too.
hope everything goes well.
I no need to worry his recess meal for the first three days.
the canteen will cater the students food.
They will have their meals in the class during recess time. As for thursday onwards, there will be student buddy from the upper class to assit him n guide him during recess period.
Recess time rather short, onyyyyyy 20 minutes nia, worried when the time he q up for food, n when he starts to sit down w his hot noodles, bell may ring anytime.
Mayb i more excited n worried too much for him. he should be fine lah.

Happy New Year. 2010 is an exciting year cos alwis is in pri 1 liao.
woooooo, so different, new environment for him, hope he can cope well in his school work as well as he can mingle around w his new friends.
today is daddy birthday, we went picnic in the morning.the kids did enjoyed themselves.
At pasir ris park, c many groups if ppl waiting for boat to send them over to kelong.
sudden thought of gan dei who likes fishing sooo much. he can spent 3d2n at kelong w his friends fishing.
Such a boring hobby. but he can nvr enjoy tat anymore, we too cant hear him telling us stories of hw many fishes he caught.
tis few days i keep thinking about him, we no longer can c him laughing , joking n gossiping about others.
the food that he likes, the mahjong that he always played, the place he works. all n all about him. when he is around we feel he naggy, when he is nt aound nw, i just feel empty.
heard about he cant even go into his own hse, that's sad. he just stand outside n stare at his own daughter...........
life is so unpredictable.

Anyway since is a new year, my year resolution is do help my boy to study well for his exam. make sure he no longer behave lazy..........